In between the good is a bit of stress
Two Africa trips, Dubai weekends, brunches and parties, etc., etc. As you all know I’ve been busy living it up. But, there’s no such thing as all good. Life likes to keep us in check.
During my first night in Kenya, while I was lounging on a porch swing, I got a message from Joe that Meiko had had her last day. I knew I wouldn’t see her again when I left last summer, but, of course, I hoped I would. I poured some gin on the ground and wished her well on her next journey. I’m still saddened by her passing, and I worry about Badger since he’s a spaz to begin with, and now he’s missing his Meiko. But he’ll be fine. Death is part of the deal, and life will go on.
Sleep well my lil buddies. Bunny is in both pics. She passed my first year here. They both lived a long and happy life, and ours had that much more love in it thanks to these two.
Toward the end of the Kenya trip I got an email for an interview for a school I’d love to work at in a location that Joe and I would both love to live at — a too good to be true kind of deal. I interviewed that same day while surrounded by mangroves, monkeys and the Indian Ocean (definitely on the list as most memorable interview). I was pretty sure I blew the interview, which of course stressed me out. I lost too much sleep over what I should have said, but I figured lessons learned from this would better prepare me for the next big interview. Three weeks later while I was in Egypt, I got the tentative offer for that job. Africa must have good mojo for me on the job front!
Since it’s through the Department of Defense there’s a lot of paperwork and back ground checking involved, so I’m not jinxing myself by telling you where the job is until I’m much further along in the process (not that I’m expecting the background check to fail!). That said it’s stressing me the eff out because you see I’m what they call a CONUS hire, which is meant for U.S. stateside folk. Because I’m currently still working in the UAE I’m not yet back at my permanent residence in the U.S. (although I will be before moving to the new job) and that’s apparently making it unclear on whether or not I will qualify for a housing allowance and all the other financial perks that go with it. The proper forms verifying my years of work are also not yet in, so the tentative salary is quite a bit lower than where I should be at, which I’ve been assured will change once years of experience have been properly approved. Long story short, if things don’t work out as they should, I might not be able to afford to take my dream job, which — you guessed it — is stressing me out even more. This isn’t a job that opens up often, so if it doesn’t work out this time, it’s not gonna happen for me next year. I’m sure it’ll all work out, but that’s not stopping negative me from doubting. The biggest stresser is not hearing back from my HR rep. I’m okay with jumping through hoops to get whatever documentation I need to get, but the empty inbox is killing me. I feel like I’m in a bad dating scene again — why am I not getting return messages?!!!! I’m so trying to do my part and if a paperwork glitch ruins this all for me I’m going to scream, possibly explode.
Work has also not been a barrel of fun. We’re in our last days of teaching, so the girls are just a tad chaotic, but they’re not the ones really stressing me out. It’s other craziness that is just best left unwritten. This too will all pass soon, and before you know it I’ll be crying because it’s my last day. (lol today it’s tears of joy, but tomorrow it’ll be genuine sad-to-leave tears).
And then there’s the stress of getting rid of my stuff and getting things ready for my next move. I also have to make sure I have enough saved to live off of until my end-of-service check from here clears, which may not happen until late August.
So, that’s about all that I have to whine about, and trust me I know what’s causing stress in my life isn’t nearly as bad as what other’s face. Even if, heaven forbid (please don’t let this be so) I can’t afford to take the job, I still get to go home to my family and enjoy some down time. So, it’s all good (um, ahem! but powers that be I really, really want to keep the new job). [it’s best to attach as much positive, good vibes as possible]
Today I play with a bunch of friends and fill my belly with too many calories — so my poor jeans will also be stressed the hell out. And, so will I when I step on the scale, but let’s save that one for another day.
OH and Happy Cinco Di Mayo! I’m sure my friends back home will be whooping it up with a margarita and some nachos tonight.