Reykjavik, December 2016

Is it just me or was last week totally exhausting.  OMG so much going on at the same time, and then, well, there’s, you know, the news back home.  I am just totally drained (lol and haven’t been back to work long), and sitting here going WTF.  

Zanzibar, December 2015

The good news is my spring break is just eight weeks away, and I’ve got most of that trip booked.  My friend Michelle is coming for a visit, and then we’re flying off to Kenya for a week.  Safaris, beaches and plenty else will keep us amazed and loving life.  But, damn, I gotta survive February first.   This is always the hardest time of year at work (for me).  I won’t bore you with the details, but I’m looking forward to March and being past where we are right now.  I’m pretty sure my girls are with me on that too.  If only the days would go by faster, and then slow down when we get to the easy part again.  Yeah, I know I’m greedy.

I’m also in the process of booking my family’s summer vacation while beginning my close out process.  I’m starting to sell my stuff, and getting my head into the resignation thing, which I don’t look forward to.  It’s hard because while I’m happy to move on to the next phase, I’m really sad to leave this life (maybe not ALL of it, but most of it).  It’s been good to me, but it’s time I moved along with my man full time again —- and with as much time as my kids will allow me to spend with them (since they’re busy doing their own versions of the adult thing).

I’m nervous about my job prospects at this point — more so than I was a few months ago — but it will all work out.  Joe says I need to relax and just enjoy living off of his paycheque for a bit before I get back into working full time again.  I keep telling myself to quit the damned worrying — hello?  housewife with no kids?  pinch me!

I type all of this knowing full and well my dilemma is not a dilemma at all. There are plenty worse lives to lead.  Go back 20 years, and I’d slap you for teasing me with such a lie.  There’s no way I could’ve imagined this to be my conflict, so I’ll take it — even with all the unknowns and uglies going on in our world right now.  I’m still loved, supported, healthy with a whole slew of possibilities in front of me.  Of course none of us knows what the future holds, and there are so many whose present isn’t even as close to as good as my past, which was hard but still a lucky life.

Reykjavik, December 2016

And when I am working I no longer feel like this poor guy — although lol sometimes I do feel like that goose behind him.

But yeah I’m just kicking back right now watching the crazy and waiting for my next move (while also enjoying our lovely weather here and my friends who’ve become family).

It won’t be long before I awkwardly (because you know I’m the chunky bird flapping and kicking me feet willing my fat ass up and over) fly to my next horizon.